Aku mau jadi baik ba..
I wanna have a good akhlak.. I wanna practice my religion soo bad.. but I always find it hard to go there. Sometimes, I feel jealous how ppl can be soo good in behaviour, akhlak,manners, how they can easily practice their religion.. but why is it hard for me?
Actually I've been there before, but ialah..not almost there,but at least.. ada ba sikit,it's easier for me to be a practicing muslim before.. but why now susah sgt2.. sometimes I wanna be good to ppl, but....drg kdg2 mnyakitkan ati waa.. something wrong with my patient now,klau dulu sng,tpi skrg knpa susah.. hati ni sudah bnyak titik2 hitam yg mem block nya dri mngingati ALLAH..
Klaw dlu sng menagis kerna ALLAH, esp bila sendirian,ani kdg2 saja..hati ni pun selalu hidup mengingatiNYA..then,skrng ni pun bnyak sekali watch movies,tvs,yg nda pedah2..kosong.. mmng tak salah klaw we can balance it. but i think im too much now.. I realize that's wer my mistake is.. sbb dlu I dont really watch movies,trash movies,tv yg melalaikan, paling2 pun watch afc coz I love cooking..(what i meant by dulu ani is 2-3ys back la not the really old me,during the jahiliyah time,atu time tu semua pun di ngap tu,erghh..) and guess what,dulu wen I avoid watchng trash tvs,n all..I feel so attach to ALLAH, betul la yg I alwys heard, if we allow the dunya to own our heart,we can sink deep into it..n fall into anything that is forbiden.. well,something like that la..
Ya Allah, pls keep on guiding me to the right path,ameen o Allah..:'(
Actually I've been there before, but ialah..not almost there,but at least.. ada ba sikit,it's easier for me to be a practicing muslim before.. but why now susah sgt2.. sometimes I wanna be good to ppl, but....drg kdg2 mnyakitkan ati waa.. something wrong with my patient now,klau dulu sng,tpi skrg knpa susah.. hati ni sudah bnyak titik2 hitam yg mem block nya dri mngingati ALLAH..
Klaw dlu sng menagis kerna ALLAH, esp bila sendirian,ani kdg2 saja..hati ni pun selalu hidup mengingatiNYA..then,skrng ni pun bnyak sekali watch movies,tvs,yg nda pedah2..kosong.. mmng tak salah klaw we can balance it. but i think im too much now.. I realize that's wer my mistake is.. sbb dlu I dont really watch movies,trash movies,tv yg melalaikan, paling2 pun watch afc coz I love cooking..(what i meant by dulu ani is 2-3ys back la not the really old me,during the jahiliyah time,atu time tu semua pun di ngap tu,erghh..) and guess what,dulu wen I avoid watchng trash tvs,n all..I feel so attach to ALLAH, betul la yg I alwys heard, if we allow the dunya to own our heart,we can sink deep into it..n fall into anything that is forbiden.. well,something like that la..
Ya Allah, pls keep on guiding me to the right path,ameen o Allah..:'(
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