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Assalamualaikum.. its been a while I didnt wrote here.. and same as listening to lectures.. its been a while too i didnt hear to my brothers islamic lecture dvd.. and just now, i was watching a lecture by sheikh feiz.. topic on"ways to repel from syaitan". it is really an eye opener for me.. i feel great listening to those lectures. and i really hope that i can apply n practise that. and now,i am soo hppy that i just rechare my imaan.. eventho just a bit..;)

Assalamualaikum MasyaAllah..It's great being a mom..Alhamdulillah, I've given birth to my handsome lil mujahid last sunday,20th of may. 11.01pm.. After going through all the journey to the labor, with all those pain make u feel like it's all worth it..once the baby out,you just feel the joy of being a Mother.. And make me appreciate my Mom more.. But Alhamdulillah,with all the support from Mummy and Hubby, SubhanaAllah I manage to bear all of the -ve feelings.. esp my mom,with her non stop du'a for me.. MasyaALLAH.. even the nurses in the 1st stage labor say my mom is so supportive :D hehe..But the only thing that disappoint me the most is that my husband wasn't there in the labor when I delivered my baby..:'( Unfortunately mom ask him to do something.. and when he wanted to come in and the mid wife there, doesn't allowed him..:( but before I delivered my baby,my husband was there.. I am willing to feel that pain again just for my husband to be there and ...

Assalamualaikum.. Today is 18 of April 2012. Next month 17 May 2012 InsyaAllah will be my due date. Pheww..all feelings mix up now, from happy,anxious,excited to scared,nervous.... woah.. but then I gotta stay positive. just think of the amazing result after that pain in the labour..:) that is InsyaAllah my Baby... I really cant wait to see him,hug n kiss him. I believe he's going to fill my life with joy n happiness InsyaALLAH.. cant wait for the momment.. now im counting my days now to 17 of May. InsyaAllah.. Ummi will going to try Ummi's best to be a good Ummi to you honey bunny.. muahss.. till we meet, ummi miss you so much..

I wanna have a good akhlak.. I wanna practice my religion soo bad.. but I always find it hard to go there. Sometimes, I feel jealous how ppl can be soo good in behaviour, akhlak,manners, how they can easily practice their religion.. but why is it hard for me? Actually I've been there before, but ialah..not almost there,but at least.. ada ba sikit,it's easier for me to be a practicing muslim before.. but why now susah sgt2.. sometimes I wanna be good to ppl, but....drg kdg2 mnyakitkan ati waa.. something wrong with my patient now,klau dulu sng,tpi skrg knpa susah.. hati ni sudah bnyak titik2 hitam yg mem block nya dri mngingati ALLAH.. Klaw dlu sng menagis kerna ALLAH, esp bila sendirian,ani kdg2 saja..hati ni pun selalu hidup mengingatiNYA..then,skrng ni pun bnyak sekali watch movies,tvs,yg nda pedah2..kosong.. mmng tak salah klaw we can balance it. but i think im too much now.. I realize that's wer my mistake is.. sbb dlu I dont really watch movies,trash movies,tv yg melal...