My Iman.....
Assalamualaikum...
Pheww...Alhamdulillah for how long i've been tryin to log back here..but i keep on can't access to it.. and Alhamdulillah now im back after being away for 8 mnths from this blog..huhuhu...I know right.. lama tuuu... now ni pun tgah rilex2 while kacau2 laptop adik ni.. so,tarus la kesini..huhu.. Alrighty then...
Here we go~~ hmm...I think Last april i work at this company.. i mean my 1st day la working there.. and I found out that as time pass by, I started to changed bit by bit..My Iman,phewww...wayyy down there.. I really didn't feel the closeness to ALLAH no more.. kinda hard to cry in prayer,or think of Him when im alone..Ya ALLAH only He knows how I felt..
During my 2nd day working there, I was introduce to everyone in the company,well not all actually... so anyway,at 1st I felt like,'what am i doing here?' Im trying so hard to set my Iman,working there for the sake of ALLAH.. but i found out that the company is full of...... I dont know,'Laghu' maybe..free mixing,trash talk,hugings male n female,shaking hands,singing,dancing.. I was kinda surprise to see those behavior..but yah I do understand the non muslim behaving that way,but surprisingly the muslim as well having those behavior..hmmm... kinda culture shock, even tho I was worn, I thought I can handle it but..hmm..looks like i kinda join them too.. and it reminds me of this lecture that i ever heard before, he says that, wen we 1st look at sin we feel so awkward to be in that environment but as time pass by u feel ok being in those environment.. like, wen ur waiting for someone from using the toilet for so long doing their business in there,then suddenly wen come to our turn,at 1st we felt like ewww to be in there but then later we felt like 'ok' to be in there.. we immune with the smell..that's how we commit sin easily.. as time pass by,we feel comfy in those environment.. hmmm...SubhanAllah... that's how i felt.. But it's a good company anyway,the people r great, the company is very establish.. it's not that I don't like working there but it's just Me..I don't know,I don't feel right..hmmm...
But actually I didn't blame that company of course,it's all my fault.. for not having the strength of Iman..But now Alhamdulillah I have become a full house wife..:)) but the saddest part is that its seems to be hard to perform my Ibadah 'khuysuk' until now my Iman is stil wayyy down there,just sometimes its up..but not always.. and Alhamdulillah now im pregnant too.. err..did I forget to mention that i had my nikah on the 28th of july ..im Married yarr..huhu..Alhamdulillah.. Im striving to get my Iman back,I miss my Iman soo much.. I want it back..:(
Hmmm...I'm tired now..Alrighty thenn~ i guess I'll stop here yarr.. till next time InsyaALLAH.. BUBBYEEE~~~ peace...
Pheww...Alhamdulillah for how long i've been tryin to log back here..but i keep on can't access to it.. and Alhamdulillah now im back after being away for 8 mnths from this blog..huhuhu...I know right.. lama tuuu... now ni pun tgah rilex2 while kacau2 laptop adik ni.. so,tarus la kesini..huhu.. Alrighty then...
Here we go~~ hmm...I think Last april i work at this company.. i mean my 1st day la working there.. and I found out that as time pass by, I started to changed bit by bit..My Iman,phewww...wayyy down there.. I really didn't feel the closeness to ALLAH no more.. kinda hard to cry in prayer,or think of Him when im alone..Ya ALLAH only He knows how I felt..
During my 2nd day working there, I was introduce to everyone in the company,well not all actually... so anyway,at 1st I felt like,'what am i doing here?' Im trying so hard to set my Iman,working there for the sake of ALLAH.. but i found out that the company is full of...... I dont know,'Laghu' maybe..free mixing,trash talk,hugings male n female,shaking hands,singing,dancing.. I was kinda surprise to see those behavior..but yah I do understand the non muslim behaving that way,but surprisingly the muslim as well having those behavior..hmmm... kinda culture shock, even tho I was worn, I thought I can handle it but..hmm..looks like i kinda join them too.. and it reminds me of this lecture that i ever heard before, he says that, wen we 1st look at sin we feel so awkward to be in that environment but as time pass by u feel ok being in those environment.. like, wen ur waiting for someone from using the toilet for so long doing their business in there,then suddenly wen come to our turn,at 1st we felt like ewww to be in there but then later we felt like 'ok' to be in there.. we immune with the smell..that's how we commit sin easily.. as time pass by,we feel comfy in those environment.. hmmm...SubhanAllah... that's how i felt.. But it's a good company anyway,the people r great, the company is very establish.. it's not that I don't like working there but it's just Me..I don't know,I don't feel right..hmmm...
But actually I didn't blame that company of course,it's all my fault.. for not having the strength of Iman..But now Alhamdulillah I have become a full house wife..:)) but the saddest part is that its seems to be hard to perform my Ibadah 'khuysuk' until now my Iman is stil wayyy down there,just sometimes its up..but not always.. and Alhamdulillah now im pregnant too.. err..did I forget to mention that i had my nikah on the 28th of july ..im Married yarr..huhu..Alhamdulillah.. Im striving to get my Iman back,I miss my Iman soo much.. I want it back..:(
Hmmm...I'm tired now..Alrighty thenn~ i guess I'll stop here yarr.. till next time InsyaALLAH.. BUBBYEEE~~~ peace...
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